I really haven't posted as of late because Michael has at schultzestrength.blogspot.com - since I blogged however Amelya has had her surgery with Coarctation of the Aorta and is ventilated and attempting to come off the ventilator. Yesterday was a little touch and go for her as her right lobe has more fluid than it should (opacity) and she failed her first cpap test to come off the ventilator. She has to have two successful cpap trials to come off. This is so fustrating to see her on a ventilator and I can't help but feel like I can't do crap to help her. I don't know their ventilator so I can't suction and she hurts with the spot her incision is... I wanna scream... So instead I ask questions. A ton about what numbers to watch, when to give meds based upon no physical or verbal signs (and blood pressures being based off a newly fixed heart) for pain. I wish I could hold her.... I wanna hold her and make it all better... Instead I have to tell myself she won't remember any of this.
I think I know how hard this is for you,but in reality I really don't . I do know that you are strong and can do this for Amelya. She will be home soon and a happy healthy baby girl. Hang in there Sweetie I Love you <3 Mom
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